Can you see the darkness there? I am talking about the place where you stay.
It is an absolute loneliness and a starvation to love. This place is hell. It is difficult to stay there so as to go mad. That is why you have been desperate and struggling to escape from there.
This picture is from 'Into the Soil' picture book
You cannot escape like that, because you are not heading to the right exit.

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